How Deep Is Your Love

How do you confess to someone when you already know how they feel? Should you even confess? It is worth it? Or should you keep it to yourself and die bit by bit everyday? Every time I see her I am stumped. Life is full of colour when she is around. When she is around, everything seems to be alright. She takes care of her family. She Whatever I thought I would say doesn’t come out. Instead all I can do is smile. Smile and just admire her. Her beautiful eyes suck me in. I can’t escape them. Her voice, the perfect pitch, the perfect melody. Why would I speak? I can listen to her all day. And when she speaks about And when she laughs, the whole room is filled with joy. How could I dare to interrupt this perfect music? As the conversation ends, I am filled with dread, sadness and happiness all at the same time. Happiness - because of the conversation I had and the time I spent. Sadness because now I don’t know when this will happen again. And finally dread, that I could not say what I wanted to say. Do I tell her now, and ruin the friendship I have? Or do I keep my mouth shut, and kill my feelings?

But let’s be honest, you can’t kill feelings. You can try as much as you want, but it won’t happen if I keep seeing her. Do I just say it, and end it so I can stop hurting myself? No, if I do it it will hurt her too. She already endures so much, I can’t be so selfish. It will break her. I need to be there for her, I can’t see her unhappy. Seeing her happy, smile and laugh makes my heart full. How can I even think of hurting her? I trod back to my room and back to my black and white life.